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Drew

You sat in front of me today
today in spanish class
I'm really bad at it anyway
I don't know how I'm going to pass

I couldn't help but wonder
as I look at your shining hair
Do you know how beautiful you are?
Do you even care?

As I smelt you cologne
I wondered what life would be like
If you were mine,
Would it be free of stress and strife?

You looked right through me
Just like you've done before
As I looked at your gorgeous face
I can't help but want something more

You laugh with your friends
You don't have a care today
All i can do is wish you were my guy...
Hope, wish and pray

The sun hit your face
Your eyes began to shine
you're still laughing with them
Are you one of them, or my kind

I can't say Something...
I want to though
And as the bell rings
You and your friends go

You're gone now
You don't care about me
Will I ever let you know
Your the only one I see?

Chad...X

Okay... i'm not really into blogs so much so bare me here... I'm Chad, I'm from the UK and i'm gay. I'm not out though and my parents are like SUPER religious! Trust me when I tell you that I really can't tell them.
This is how I found out...

I was in 7 years old and my teacher was getting married, because of this we had to draw pictures of what we thought are weddings would be like. I drew the groom, the bridesmaids, etc and then I got to draw the person I was getting married to and I stopped. Somewhere in my little childish brain I realized that it didn't feel right to draw a bride but I couldn't draw another groom because then I would feel differeent from everybody and I already felt isolated enough... believe me! So I drew the same as everyone else I went home I drew what I really dreamt of.

So that's my 'reliezation' story!

Sorry if I bored you but I was in need of venting!! ...X