I badly need that SPIRIT ROOM album.

I don't know what's happening to me.
It feels like something's missing so bad.
But it also feels like it's not essential.
But there's this strong passion that makes me want to wander out there and looking for this thing missing in my heart.
I feel like my roots are gone if I were a plant.
I feel like a deep well with no water.
I feel so hallow that I have no limbs.
I feel so empty.
But do you know what is this thing I'm looking for?
It's just a CD. A compact disk as you put it.
Maybe it's a normal one for your eyes.
But maybe that CD will fill my empty well perfectly.
Kind of weird right?
I'm also wondering why that CD's got a real strong effect on me.
I'm thinking that maybe SHE is really my root.
Maybe SHE really awakened in me the music I never knew I could create.
As you know, music is my life. It's my bestest friend.
It's the blood in my veins.

Now, if you happen to have that THE SPIRIT ROOM album, I will buy it.
REALLY.
In any condition, as long as the CD is playing well, and the paper's readable,
even if the case is broken. Well, another option is, if you could buy for me that CD on eBay, because I don't buy things on the internet (and I don't know how. :DD). I will pay you as well.

Because I can't find it in any music store, and the more I look for it, my heart's frustration and desperation overflows. I feel the disappointment so bad that I WANT TO CRY.
Very funny, isn't it?
I'm actually CLASSIFYING myself as an ABNORMAL.
My emotions are too strong for me.
What do you think?